Meaningful

自从

2012-02-05T22:47:00.001+08:00

自从那一天，
已经有一段日子了。

我们不再联络，
就这样，
会继续下去吗？

可能久了，
我就会习惯吗？

希望下次联络时，
你该不会说 ...

谢谢豪

2012-02-03T02:00:00.003+08:00

刚刚和豪吃宵夜，
谈了不少事情。
很谢谢他，
给我了那么多的鼓励。
对，
就算很僵很僵，
也不可以那么容易放弃的。

只要心里还有一点不服气，
就还不到放弃的时候，
加油，
不管怎样，
都不能退缩。
我会加油的！！！

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

2012-02-02T18:54:00.003+08:00

每个故事，
都有一个胖子，
可是这个故事，
没有胖子。

那时是大学的时候，
4个朋友，都在追不同的女孩。
最高的那个，
已经追到了。
他和他的女朋友，
分隔两地，
一个在西马，一个在东马。。
感情还算好，
也是另外三个羡慕的一对情侣。

最帅的那个，
还是单身，可是最近，
爱上了一个在狮城认识的女生。
子书变成了男孩追女生的工具。
男孩，也每天都会去留意女孩的书页，
变成了睡觉前的一项‘必做事’ 。

和我最要好的那个，
和我的情况很像。
他喜欢一个在东马留学的中学同学。
可是因为害怕，
所以一直没有行动。

最近，
他告诉我，说，
他打算放弃了。
他没说为什么，
只是说，可能不适合吧 ~
看的出，他很伤心。

至于我呢，
最近在朋友的怂恿下，
做了一间蛮无聊 + 废的事情。

或许我就是这样，
太废了 ~
虽然不懂有没有真正的感动到她，或是踩到了她的尾巴，
不知道。
现在想想，
还蛮幼稚的。
今天在想，整天都在想，该放弃了吗？

四个好朋友，
每天聊的，
都是自己喜欢的女生，
或许我们这一班，
是很幼稚顽皮的，
可是我们一定不会是坏男生。

在想，
我是不是真的太冲动 + 做事没经过大脑了？
现在这种尴尬的局面，都是我惹出来的吗？
不知道，
今天一整天都被很烦的心情给纠结这。
有种自责的感觉。
没被骂，反而觉得不好过。

觉得如果不能回到像以前那样，
应该都是我自找的吧？
大笨蛋！
大笨蛋！

从来没想过

2012-02-01T16:17:00.002+08:00

或许，
我真的太幼稚，
或是太自以为是了，
还是做事没经过大脑！

大笨蛋！
没想过，
原来感动和生气，
只是一线之差。

我没有想要侵犯你的隐私，
我真的错了吗？

我真的是全世界最笨最蠢的人！

很静很静

2012-01-31T01:42:00.002+08:00

你不在的日子里，
我的生活，
变得很静。

少了大大大声的叫声，
少了大大大声的笑声，
也少了以往的巧遇。

最近每次出去，
都少了份期待，
我变得不喜欢出去。

真的，
很静很静。

真的很 stress

2012-01-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

昨晚，
我很迟才睡，
还没睡着，
就听到房间的门开了 ...
我还清醒，
那时候，
头脑还想着很多东西。
考试，考试 ...
这次回去真的会很 stress 的。

是爸爸，
他也是失眠，
进来了我的房间，
偷看我，
是舍不得我今天就回学校了吗？

这次回来，
我并不快乐，
因为很多东西烦。
可能是他担心我，
所以近来多看我一眼。

妈妈，
虽然没有偷看我，
可是，
看的出，
她也是很担心我。
还好今天舅舅和外婆他们从居銮来找妈妈，
所以妈妈才开心一点。

这次，
一定要加油了！
3 个礼拜，
就考试，
考完了，就能享受了！
加油！！！

别紧张，
别压力，
我行的！

谢谢你

2012-01-23T23:09:00.003+08:00

真的是很不好意思。
我太任性了 ...

除夕夜，
是一家人团聚的日子。
可是，还叫 ...
太自私了。

可是，
很高兴，
好感动 ...

对不起，
因为我本来不是那样想的，
是我多疑 ...
很抱歉 ...

真的是很不好意思，
还要你破费，
怎么就那么客气呢？
我真的很不好意思咧 ...
真的，谢谢 ...

虽然不是很久很长，
但是我永远会记得那一天 ...

那一天 ...

如果新年有一个愿望给我达成，
我希望回到那一刻，
然后停在那一刻，
就那样，
那样就够了 ...

好难过

2012-01-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

其实，
不要承诺，
好过不能实现 ...

莫名的失落，
无法形容，
或许是自己看的太重，
才会招惹心痛 ...

没有生气，
只是失望，
为何不能达成，
却给了我空空的希望？

心很痛，
可是却不能说，
或许是自己想太多，
或许是你随便说 ...

我的心很痛，
希望早日能够放下，
从新出发 ...

不要在给我假象！

Actually

2012-01-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

Today,
I chat with someone ..
In the eyes of others,
I am the type of person who is very shy ..

People think that if I like someone,
I won't take action,
and i will keep quiet,
love her at one side,
without confessing and anything ..

I admit that ..
Maybe I am brave in other things,
but when meet with the girl i like,
I will be very shy and duno what to do ..

I am not like those brave boys,
who have the gut to chase after the girl they like,
Maybe people think I am useless ..

Maybe,
I just can watch,
how the girl I like leave with other guys,
and I cant do anything to stop ..
Because I dun even do a single thing .

So,
I am a FAILURE !!!

I am not an expect in expressing my feeling,
but,
I can love her secretly with my life.

At this moment,
miss her loud loud laugh that she made everytime she saw me ...

我没有爱演

2012-01-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

.. 去年的新春晚会，
我演戏，
今年，晋升成 senior ..

那天拍戏，
不够人演，
朋友问，
不然我去演一个配角，
我犹豫，
于是 post 在了子书上 ..

不久，
别人就开始comment le,
说我爱演，霸着演！

摆脱！
演一个小角色，
又没有跟 junior 抢！
你们不懂喜剧里面的东西，
就不要乱乱讲！

ok !
我告诉你们，
senior farewell,
老子不演了！
我也有自己的性格！

你们真的很缺德，
弄到我新年没有心情！
法克！

CNY - Year of Dragon

2012-01-17T17:51:00.002+08:00

CNY is coming,
I shouldn't buy the air ticket so early,
I can go back to home by now actually.
Haix, human calculates less accurate than Heaven.

Going back,
means I can relieve myself from my Schizo room mate,
long time did not gather with my secondary school friends,
hope to meet with them as well..

I hope the year of Dragon,
will be a better year for me,
and I wish to crave my own happiness in this year !
^^

.. 绝交 ..

2012-01-14T22:58:00.004+08:00

我真的受不了你了，
你的变来变去，
一下 emo,
一下 over-stimulated ...
不管你真的神经，
还是假扮的，
都不再关我的事。

我不会再理你，
你要怎样就怎样，
随便你！
你的生活你决定！

我们绝交 !
别再来烦我就好！
我也有自己的人生要过！

你，
自己保重！
如果神经，
请去看医生！

新的一年 2012

2012-01-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

2011 年的最后一天，
没有想到，
会遇见你两次，
好开心，
2011年，好的结束 ~

新的一年，
第一天，就被困 ~
真倒霉！
还好脱险了 ...

今年，
要更努力读书，加油！

希望会有新的突破！

好运连连！！

擦肩而过

2011-12-27T10:38:00.002+08:00

如果不是命运的作弄，
就是缘分的不足。

明明是很靠近，
的距离，
可是最后，
却擦肩而过。

遗憾，
说不出口。

好的事情，
会重复吗？

只要心里还存有一丝的不甘心，
就还不到放弃的时候 …

我的青春 ~

不知的未来，
那些未知数，
让下次的相遇，
更期待 ~

暧昧。相遇

2011-12-12T01:34:00.002+08:00

如果说，
恋爱最美好的时候，
就是暧昧的时候；
那么，
暧昧最美好的时候，
可以是相遇的时候吗？

有人说，
前世的500次擦肩而过，
换来今世的一次相遇。

人海茫茫，
遇见不易，
认识更难。

相遇了，
他，
傻傻地笑，
羞答答的脸颊，
不知道该说什么。

那种心跳加速的感觉，
好像快爆开似的。

尴尬的气息弥漫着，
好近的距离，
可是，
看起来，
却好远好远 ~

平静的相遇，
傻傻的对望，
兴奋的表情，
甜甜的微笑，
就是暧昧最美好的时候 ~

我的青春 ❤

很长的一段路

2011-12-01T21:23:00.003+08:00

医学是一个非常长，很长的路。

昨天，
和亲爱的顺全通电话，
我们都承认，
这是一条，
很辛苦的路。

曾经，
我和他，
都想过要放弃，
可是，
我们都知道，
既然做了选择，
就不该轻易言败。

我们，
不管怎样，
都会撑下去。

加油。

有时候，
会很累，
但是，我们已经麻木了。

没有了知觉，
只是一直地努力，
希望我们会有属于自己的一片天。 =）

死亡

2011-11-29T22:58:00.003+08:00

对于很多人来说，
死亡很可怕？
你见过人，在你面前死去吗？

今天，
一个病人，
我看见他的家人围着他，
他很憔悴。

他，
过后去世了 ~
白布盖着他，
他走了，永远都不会再回来了 ~

不论他的家人怎么喊，多么地伤心，
过世，就是过世了 ~

医学生要面对的，
除了读书的压力，
CLERK CASE 和 PE 等的压力，
还有面对死亡。

人是微小的。
今天也许你是活着的，
但你不知道，
下一秒，你的命运是怎样的。

加油 ~~~

真实人生

2011-11-24T14:59:00.000+08:00

真实人生里，
很多事情都没有答案，
不像考试 ~

最近很多事情发生，
很累，
很忙，
希望瓶颈快点过去。

人与人，
之间的关系很微妙。

我觉得，
很多我看见的事情，
有些人真的很无辜 ~

别把他们赶上绝路，
可以吗？

囧

可怕

2011-11-18T00:20:00.004+08:00

我觉得，你很可怕。

我已经很累了。
真的没力气去理会你了。

真的真的。
不是我自私。

我的顶限已经到了。
我很累，去回答你的问题。
很别人相比，我真的能帮你的，已经帮了。
可是，
你自己如果不愿踏出那架框，
别人要如何帮你？
因为，你自己也不肯帮你自己。

这个礼拜，
我真的很累，每天都三四点才睡觉。
你了解我的感受吗？

以前，
我很有热忱和心帮你，
可是，自从那天你的那种态度，
我，绝望。

我没有义务和责任，
帮你做所有东西，
也不可能，老是，
告诉你我的东西，
我有隐私，我有自由，
我被你弄到我很累。

我不是你的什么，
我没有必要时时刻刻告诉你，
我要去哪里，去做什么，
几点会回，等等等。。。

只要你可以不要那么敏感，
不要一直钻牛角尖，
你何必活到那么痛苦？

你可以，不要老是觉得全世界都好像欠你一百万吗？
别人没帮你，你就不爽，
你要明白，这个社会是现实的。
这里不是童话故事，
你也不是王子公主。

你，必须独立。
因为，
别人已经被你搞得很累，很累了！！！

姐姐和弟弟 - 有可能的恋曲吗？

2011-11-08T09:28:00.004+08:00

女孩和男孩同校。女孩大男孩一岁。

那时，是学会的一次外出活动，男孩和女孩被编进了同一组。
女孩是那组的带队学姐，男孩还是大一的新生。
就这样，男孩和女孩认识了。

频密的巧遇，是缘分的假想，还是命运的安排？
随着时间的缓缓流走，
男孩和女孩逐渐变得很要好。

虽然不同科，也不同的学年，他俩还是会很频密的遇见，喧哗，聊天和开玩笑。
有时候，一天他们都会在不同的地点，不同的时间，遇见好几次。
就是这种突然又时常的巧遇，拉近了他们的距离，也让他们更了解彼此。

不知道为什么，每当他们相见时，都会很开心，女孩也会很大声地叫男孩的名字。男孩则会很搞笑的回应女孩。
男女孩都一直保持他们的暧昧，男孩不确定女孩的心意，女孩也不清楚男孩的想法。

姐弟恋，在东方社会里，是很不被看好的恋情。
很多女孩都很排斥姐弟恋。男孩也因为这一点，而也搞不清楚自己对女孩的心意是什么。
女孩问过男孩；"你能接受姐弟恋吗？"
男孩很疑惑，不敢正面回答，女孩也很懊恼，因为男孩没有表示。

也是从开始到现在，女孩对男孩的心意只是姐姐对弟弟的关心，而男孩对女孩的顽皮就像弟弟在给姐姐的撒娇。
暧昧，含糊不清。
不管是男孩还是女孩，
都不确定那份不肯定。
也许就是那份疑惑，维持了对于相遇时的期待和维持了每次遇见时的快乐。

* 没有行动，没有表示 = 没有拒绝，没有交往

男孩可以继续喜欢女孩，可是那份遗憾会永远都在。

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《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》

女：你想知道答案吗？我现在就可以告诉你。
男：拜托不要现在告诉我，请让我 .... 继续喜欢你 ......

男孩不是不想知道答案，而是怕女孩给的不是他要的答案 .....

<那些年〉

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的约

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
[好想擁抱妳擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

Long Time

2011-11-04T23:34:00.002+08:00

I've been stopped blogging for a long time.

Many things happened,
and all that,
made me stronger.

I had my first patient in my medical student's life.
He had pneumonia secondary to COPD.
He has healed.
My first clinical presentation wasn't that good.
I am a perfectionist.
I made a lot of mistakes and i hate myself.
I swear that I will do better next time.

Hospital,
is a place where many people do not like to go.
It's a place where u can see people sick, suffer and dying.

I clerked a stage 4 Lung CA patient on one day,
his Dr did not inform that his Lung CA,
He was prevented from knowing the truth.
Because He's dying.
Dr allowed him to discharge.
The patient was so happy,
but actually, The Dr just did not want to let him to die in the hospital,
to give him a chance to die at home.

Life is so fragile.
Many things can happen.
I am really impressed by the patients inside the hospital.

They are sick but they are strong to face their illness.
I pray that everyone can stay healthy.
Because I really do not like to see people lying on the bed of the hospital.

My holiday has started.
Luckily I had my report submitted before the holiday,
so I have lesser worries now.

I gonna to relax,
second year is much more stress compared to first year.
History taking and physical examination seem to be so new to us,
we need time to practise and sharpen-ens our skills...

Ok,
I've many things to do and attend in this holiday,
I gonna plan my holiday well...

I will refresh myself in this holiday !!!

开玩笑

2011-09-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

什么是开玩笑？
如果你说得不好笑，
又讽刺，
那还算是玩笑嘛？

昨天，
佛学会 AGM，
我获选为 PUBLICITY 的执委。

今天，
《心灯》开会，
SENIOR，一个口无遮拦的 SENIOR ，
说，我是色狼，要去骗 JUNIOR ？？？

拜托，
我需要吗？？？
明明就是你自己 DESPERATE，
跑来说我？？
妈的！！！

已经大四了，
还跑来大二，大一同学们的 EVENT，
是谁 DESPERATE ？？？

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Regarding Johor Gathering,
I really wanna explode,
if U really have so many comments,
then can u please just go organize urself !!!!

被耍

2011-09-17T14:18:00.004+08:00

被耍，
的滋味，
很不好过。

如果说，
你没有给我希望，
就不会有今天的失望。

因此，
我不再轻易相信别人。
因为，
最后受伤的，
会是自己。

请别再和我说到天花乱坠，
我觉得，
你们在耍我！

你们，
很没有礼貌。

我，
超受伤的。

Of Course,
I myself should be blamed,
because I believe everything,
that u all have told me ...

职业。愿望

2011-09-08T23:14:00.002+08:00

我是一个很喜欢新鲜东西的人。我很喜欢不同的职业。我深信行行出状元。

我曾经在银行，服装店，货仓等地方上班。
现在是名医学生。
当然，我希望我能够顺利毕业，
将来成为一名医生。

同时，
我还蛮担心的，因为我喜欢尝试和学习不同的东西。
我还想，以后在餐馆，酒店工作，
我也想做TAXI司机。

我的妈妈曾经问我，
你是不是变态的，
她很奇怪，
为什么，我总是喜欢做工，同时又要继续读书，
而且我们家也不是很需要我去做工来养家，
可是，我就是很怪癖。

我喜欢尝试，和学习。
我喜欢角色扮演，
喜欢制服，喜欢和不同的人接触。

虽然我不知道以后，
还有没有机会，
但是，我已经想好了，
以后想做侍应生或厨房助理。

当然，我也很渴望成为医生，
我的梦想，就是 - 无国界医生和战地医生

Back-ing

2011-09-07T00:20:00.001+08:00

Going back to USM.

I've rusted.
I do not want to go back.
Haix.

Aisk ...

I got to face the reality.

Hopefully,
Good Luck will accompany to go back ,
and bad luck,
please stay away from ME !!!

大二

2011-09-01T12:16:00.000+08:00

新的开始

2011年，
对我来说，
是一个不如意的年份。

还记得，
2010年，
站在舞台上的我，
仿佛到达了人生的巅峰。

一切，
都随我到了理大后而改变。

天堂到地狱，
拥有到失去。

大一，
太不顺利了。

好朋友的背叛和自私，
就像把利刀，
插在我的背上。

成绩变得一落千丈，
光芒不再。

人，
变得伊默怪癖。

一切的一切，
对我本身的打击蛮大。

下个礼拜，
大二。

2012年，
即将到来，
我期盼，
那，
会是全新的一年。

我失去的，
实在太多了，
别再让我失去什么了好吗？

人，
不能老活在过去，
我明白，
也了解，
所以，
我时刻叮嘱我自己，
放下吧！

这四个月长假，
我思索了自己的未来很久，
也做了蛮多有意义的事情，
希望，
明年会更好！

霉运滚远远！
坏人闪远远！
谢谢！

人生

2011-08-19T21:37:00.001+08:00

很多事情，只要，
不去比较，
少执著一些，
就会好过一点。

人，
就是这样，
喜欢比较，
羡慕和妒忌。
原来少了，
比较，羡慕和妒忌；
是那么平静的。

知足常乐 ~

原来，
一直抱怨自己少了什么，
并不能让自己得到什么，
反而只是一直地痛苦。
所以，
看开点，
也对自己好过些呗！

4 months holiday = wasted ?

2011-08-16T18:24:00.002+08:00

Well, my 4 months holiday going to end.

In this 4 months time,
i worked for 2 and half months,
travelled for 2 weeks.
left one month at home.

I am the sort of person who tend to regret easily.
I admit that.

Now,
I feel very bad to myself.
I think that I 've wasted my holiday.

4 months,
It varnished all things that I've learnt in first year.
Anatomy, Physiology and Biochemistry ....
How am i going to catch up my studies in second year ???
Pathology, Pharmacology and etc ????

Today,
4th year's clinical posting 's list is out.
Many seniors are so worried ...
Medical, surgery, Obstetrics and Gynaecology, Ophthalmology ....
They started to feel the tension.

Although it has nothing to do with me,
But i can feel the stress too.

2nd year,
people mentioned that is a honeymoon year.
Is it ???
I regret that i did not revise the medical notes well.
My dad doubts whether i can catch up my 2nd year studies or not.
He nagged that i shouldn't work in this holiday.

Haix,
I just don't have the motivation to study.
How ????
Lazy !

left 23 days, back on 9th sep ~
Hopefully everythings will be fine.
Even in-coming juniors already very kiao shu,
stated to read 1st year 's notes,
am i too 堕落？？？

即生伟，何生丹

2011-08-15T14:27:00.000+08:00

即生瑜，何生亮？

这是周瑜，字公瑾，东吴大都督，在《三国》里说到的。
瑜指周瑜本人，至于亮，则指诸葛孔明，刘备的军师。
周瑜和诸葛亮，都十分能干。他俩斗了许久，
周瑜始终未能击败诸葛亮，
诸葛亮夺了荆州，周瑜饮恨而终，
再其临终之前，道出了：“即生瑜，何生亮”？

意思是说老天，为何让周瑜出世，却同时又让诸葛亮和他同处于乱世之中。
诸葛亮天生就是周瑜的对手，
虽说周瑜才华横溢，可诸葛亮却老是棋高一等。
周瑜，于是就道出了：“即生瑜，何生亮”？

拿督李宗伟虽贵为羽坛一哥，
却屡屡败在中国好手林丹拍下。
这不经令人联想到：“即生伟，何生丹”？

Médecins Sans Frontières 無國界醫生救援活动

2011-08-12T23:58:00.004+08:00

当你觉得自己很倒霉，很不幸时，
请打消你的念头！！！

当你觉得你没钱买新的智慧型手机时，
请想想！ RM200 就能为10位穷苦的小朋友提供医疗药物。

人，
不要老是想自己没有什么，
而是要想想自己已经有了什么，
那么才能惜福。

Recently,
Doctors without Frontiers,
performing medical cares to local Somalians,
who suffered from prolonged starvation, malnutrition and dry season.

Somali,
An Africans country,
which has been suffered from prolonged internal civil war since 1990,
has the highest number of citizens died from starvation every year.

The photo I have uploaded here,
showing how poor and pity of the Somalians.

Malnutrition leads to dry skin, kwashiorkor, marasmus, oedema and so on.
Prolonged civil war and countless land dynamites,
caused many children injuired and fractured .
Many children lost their parents from the war .

I really feel sympathy towards them,
I should appreciate to the God,
How good is my life at here ...

I pray for them,
I hope I could help them one day !!!

曹操

2011-08-12T23:41:00.002+08:00

最近在家，
我迷上了一部古装片-三国。

好开心，
刚刚看完了全部95集。

从小，
我就有想要阅读三国演义的志向，
可是每次都懒惰地推辞了。
幸好，拍成了电视剧，
可以不用酱辛苦地看书了。
嘿嘿 ~

剧中，我好喜欢曹操。

‘山不厌高，海不厌深；周公吐脯，天下归心’

‘我愿负天下人，也不愿天下人负我’

虽然曹操未能在有生之年统一中原，
可是却凭他的奸诈狡猾，
灭了吕布，袁术，袁绍，马滕等诸侯。。。

还有，
我很喜欢另一句， ‘人中吕布，马中赤兔’ ~

可是，
刘邦，孙权和曹操虽然斗了一世，
最后赢的，却是司马懿，司马昭和司马炎 ~
很可悲的结局厚，
很讽刺 ~

曹操的另一句名言 - 知错，改错，但从不认错 ~

喜欢！！！

Many friends think I am very special,
in the sense that,
They think I am weird to like all those things,
They said, Medical Students should never like those old past things,
I don't care,
I just like them,
since I was small ~

Bro's Big Day ! Commencement of the Class of 2011 !!

2011-08-04T22:36:00.003+08:00

My only and elder Bro,
HAS GRADUATED !!!

I was honoured to have chance,
to attend his COMMENCEMENT CELEBRATION at NUS .

I hereby,
wish my brother all the best in his future undertaking,
and,
at the same time,
would like to congrate him for his success !!!

GREAT !!!

He is now doing Doctor of Philosophy (PHD),
which gives him a "DR" title, after 4 years.

I wish him all the best again !!!

Love my Bro, Love my Family !!!!

Hong Kong Memories

2011-08-03T17:22:00.003+08:00

Hong Kong Memories ~
I like to live in the past,
especially I like to recall back those Happy Things,
which I faced before .

The previous Hong Kong trip,
was very enjoying.

I met many friends,
went to many places,
where I never dreamt that I could be at there before,
and I made it in the previous travel.

Besides,
I found out ONE thing,
I am the type of person,
who likes to travel.

Even though it needs a lot of money,
I still enjoy travelling.

I do not know how to explain,
maybe I just like to walk around,
and I am getting more interests on back-packing,
I hope by one day,
I can buy myself a brand new DSLR,
and travel around the world,
and start my back-packing !!!

Awesone !!!

On top of that,
I find that,
I mean after I attended SCOPH session after the Conference,
where the SCOPH had introduced to us,
how poor are the life of the AFRICANS and 3rd world country's citizens,
I feel sympathy on them,
and I have another wish here,
It may not be allowed by my parents,
But,
I really wish upon my graduation,
I can have some time to become a DOCTOR WITHOUT BORDERS,
to travel around,
at the same time to promote health caring to them,
and provide basic medical services to them....

Long Time No Blogging !!!!

2011-08-01T12:45:00.005+08:00

Yeap !!!!

More than 1 month i haven't updated my blog...

Currently, I am quite free.
I just resigned from my previous job.

It was too tiring.
A lot of political issues arised at my workplace,
which i dislike the most.
Hence,
I resigned to exchange my freedom back ...

Between,
a lot of things happened in the past 1 month,
i went to Hong Kong,
to attend AMSA - IFMSA Joint Conference 2011 ..

It was Awesome !!!!!
I met many friends from many different country ...
My Group Moderators (GMs) are Darryl , Heidi and Jess .. There all are HK ppl !!!
My other members include Seno (Indonesia), Kring (Thai), Jade (Korean), Stephen (Taiwan), Sophia (China Mainland) and so on !!!!

Jade, the Korean,
was my room mate for 7 days !!!!
Woo !!!!
He was clubbing every night and he was drunk every night also !!!

The theme for the Joint Conference this time, was - Integrative Medicine,
which emphasised on the combination of both modern and traditional medicine,
in today medicine practise ....

I learnt many things during the trip,
and more importantly,
I visited Star Avenue （星光大道）, Disneyland, Ocean Park （海洋公园）, victoria Port（维多利亚港口）, The Peak （山顶）, The Central （中环）, The Temple Street （庙街）, 尖沙嘴， Hong Kong University, Chinese University of Hong Kong and so on ...

The trip was expensive,
but the experience was UNBUYABLE ...

伤心

2011-06-17T17:46:00.003+08:00

我很久很久，
没有那么伤心了。

今天，
和艾人去买了件 BATIK TOP SHIRT，
可是竟然被偷，
我真的很喜欢，
而且我打算在AMSA CULTURAL NIGHT ，
的时候穿的，
比较有大马的风格，
也可以代表大马，
不会 mempersia-suikan malaysia,
谁知被偷了。

我真的很伤心，
因为我又买多了一件新的，
等于我买了两件 ~~~

这里是JB，
罪案之城 ~~~

伤心 ~~~

sad + sedih ~~~

衣服也偷 ~~~
无言 ~~~
最好你穿得下。

Tired

2011-06-09T20:11:00.002+08:00

So tiring recently,
haix,
wish to have more sleeping time.

Everyday,
i have no enough sllep,
even though now is holiday,
i am just too busy...

I did not really enjoy my holiday,
i make myself very busy everyday,
maybe i wanna make myself very cheap gua ???

Between,
i am still happy to dream of u every night,
even though i know,
that i am and forever out of ur mind .

Sew - ing

2011-06-06T22:51:00.002+08:00

Today,
i learnt sewing ..

It was the 1st experience in my life.
Although it is not that perfect,
and i spent 3 and a half hour for it ...

It was a bit long,
i meant the sewing duration.
For two long pants.

I am ready to be a house-man ...
Haha,
hope to learn more things...

Tomorrow,
new challenges,
I will try my best to overcome my fears.

God bless me.

JUNE

2011-06-03T20:13:00.002+08:00

Time flies,
now is June already...

Recalling back to June 2010,
at that time,
I was busying,
to prepare to further my studies at USM ...
Bought this and that ...

Now,
I am so boring at home...

However,
4 months holiday have left about 3 months,
must continue to enjoy to the fullest,
otherwise,
i will sure regret ...

Hehe,
no point to always live in the past,
a new month for me,
and i hope it will be a new start for me ...

I know,
even my mouth asks my to stop so,
my brain will still against my mouth's order ~
Just follow my heart ...

I will sure be blessed by the God ...
Because i believe in U,
FULLY !!!!!

阴天

2011-05-25T21:39:00.003+08:00

最近很累。
不懂，
就是累 ~

不忙，
我就装忙，
算是麻醉自己，
也算，
是种逃避。

也许，
忙了，
就不会胡思乱想。

我，
就是这样，
喜欢用忙碌来自我催眠。

拜托，
烦的事，
就让我忘了吧 ~

老是觉得，
我的生活，
是不是太忙了，
有时会觉得，
我为了忙记一些东西，
而折磨自己，
天天都弄到自己很累，
虽然我觉得很累很累，
可是我还是一直强逼我自己，
做我不喜欢的事，
让自己好忙好忙。

下个月一号，
我升职了，
工作也加重了，
可是我不快乐，
常常，
我忙到很累的时候，
我尝试问我自己，
为了什么？

$ ?
我快乐吗？
为了忘记？
可是到头来我忘记了什么吗？
答案是没有。

有时候，
有时候，
人就是很矛盾，
我为了忘记而忙，
到头来，
也很迷惑，
往往。。。。

下了一场雨后，
我的背影还在，
我还是会为了你的难过而难过，
我还是会为了你的痛苦而痛苦，
我无法阻止你的难过和痛苦，
可是我愿与你一起承担你的痛苦和难过，
当你觉得难过和痛苦的时候，
别怕，
因为会有一个人比你更难过和痛苦。

突然之间

2011-05-19T23:10:00.003+08:00

突然之间，

我觉得我，
以前，
的我，很不好。。。

我，
突然，
很恨很恨我自己。。。

别安慰我，
我是这样的。。。

我，
真的很后悔。

但是，
在别人面前，
我却很不喜欢认错，
因为，
我很爱很爱，
面子 ~

面子，
值多少？

我，
很讨厌我自己，
因为，
我每次，
和自己说不可以这样那样，
可是，
我还是不会改，
可以说我倔强，
难听点，
我犯贱 ~~~

为什么？？？

不知怎样过

2011-05-12T21:44:00.002+08:00

四个月，
要怎样过？

头头，
是觉得不错下，
可是现在回来了，
觉得日子还真难过下 ~

怎样过？
平时忙过头，
现在又太轻松了。

我，
就像橡皮筋，
考试时拉得太紧了，
现在，
又太放轻松了。

嗨哟 ~

~~~~~~~~加油~~~~~~~~

那里跌倒，
那里站起来。

我，
不会放弃，
我要继续做 LALA，
一次的挫折不算什么，
我，
永不言败，
Never say die ~

Thanks God

2011-05-11T14:00:00.001+08:00

Thanks god ...
I know it is not the end ...
But,
it is a new start .
Jia you !!!

I don't need a Lala bag,
and people will still believe,
that i am a lala,
I will remember this forever !

God, Please bless my name - CHONG ZHI XIONG be called tomorrow

2011-05-10T23:33:00.003+08:00

God,
my name is CHONG ZHI XIONG,
I,
hereby,
sincerely and pray for your kindness and generousity,
to make my name be called,
tomorrow, 11th May 2011,
at Dewan Kuliah 4,
Because,
I really need it.
I wish this can be a turning point in my life,
I had experienced a bad start in May,
Can U give me a wonderful end before i leave here ?

Thank you !
I am willing to do anything .
Please,
Lucky star, please stand with me tomorrrow okay ?

Lala

2011-05-10T15:55:00.003+08:00

Lala ,
U know what does it mean ?

I like this :
"U don't need to buy a Lala Bag,
As long as u know yourself are a Lala,
Then people will know that u are a Lala,
Lala bag significances nothing ~
Remember,
even though u are a lala,
never show out your Lala 's attitude ..."

The above situation applies to me to some degree,
I have not any Lala Bag,
But people agree with my ability,
This is more than enough what i need .

I will work for lala,
to compensate ...

God,
I know the results have out,
It has been printed and so on,
I am here,
sincerely pray that ,
I can pass ,
Please,
Thanks God ...

May lucky star be on my side tomorrow ...

Can u Kesian Me ?

2011-05-09T21:04:00.002+08:00

God,
can u please kesian me a bit ?

May,
A critical month to me ...
I down .

God,
Lucky Star,
please bless me to stand up again ,
can ?

Unexplainable and Unpredictable

2011-05-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

Many things are unexplainable.
Even though u have done your best,
it doesnt mean that U will get good results.

Many things are unpredictable.
Sometimes,
when one thinks he / she is good,
it is reverse.

Moral value that i have learnt,
don't talk much.

我不配

2011-05-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

五号，
考完了。

堕落了两天，
今天很内疚。

这次，
考试不顺利 ~

OSPE，
我跑错STATION 。
从14跳到20。
整整MISS 了7 个 STATION。

当时的我，
很害怕，
情绪严重被影响，
几乎崩溃。
其他的STATION也因如此，
做得不是很好 ~

我，
祈求，
我的MCQ 和 SEQ 能够帮我，
给我力量。

因为，
我不配 ~

维德话语：努力和成就，往往不成正比，运气是至胜的绝对，但是努力是成功的阶梯 ~

~~~~~~~~我不配~~~~~~~~

“想念啊，
你听见我了吗，
可能吗？”

今天，
很高兴可以看见你。
因为真的好久不见。

可是
看见你们那么好聊，
遮盖了我的开心。

我，
强颜欢笑，
因为，
我不想让你看出破绽。

我，
努力掩饰，
让自己变得transparent。

我，
变得沉默，
因为不想打扰。

我，
不再和你说笑，
因为不想让别人再乱说。

我，
是画边的一个花瓶，
不需要得到注意，
只希望可以偷偷的注意你。

因为，
我不配。

维德话语：“ 我不配，因为我不配。”

Last Shot

2011-04-29T01:35:00.000+08:00

Less than 100 hours.
Exam coming !!!

Jia You !!!

Brain Juice = CSF

2011-04-26T18:36:00.003+08:00

My best friend,
Aaron Tay Shun Qian..
is currently studying Medic in UPM as well...

I still remember,
in the past,
when exam is coming,
I and he would say,
"let's go drill a hole at the head of the teachers, suck out their brain juice and so we can score in the exam"

Hehe,
we were still young at that time...

Actually the brain juice,
we meant,
is actually cerebrospinal fluid,
produced by the choroid plexus in our brain.

Hehe,
we had a tele-conversation,
and now,
we change Brain Juice into CSF ...

Conclusion is,
1) We have become more knowledgable .
2) We are getting matured as we have abondoned the childish word.

Hehe,
The problem is,
sucking CSF doesn't worrk.

If it works,
I am sure that Dr Asma, Dr Zul, Associate Prof K.N.N.S and so on,
will have a hole in their Scalp...

Haha,
or i should just test it before i test on the Lecturer ?
My room mate 1st ??

Hehe,
when they sleep,
then i shall....

Haha....
I think i am too stressed already,
that's why i come out with this weird idea ...

Blalala

Haiyoyo

2011-04-25T23:05:00.001+08:00

Stress ya ...
Many things haven't revised...

Exam's coming.
Less than one week from today...

Damn stress...
Mummy keeps asking me to relax ...

But then if i relax,
i tend to oversleep ...
Wasted many precious time ya ...

Many anatomy,
after reading still forget ...

Die lah ...
May God bless me ...

一百次，一千次

2011-04-25T11:05:00.002+08:00

我可以，
对着镜子，
说一百次，
“我喜欢你”

我可以，
在梦里，
说一千次，
“我爱你”

在你面前，
我却犹豫不决。

Dream III

2011-04-24T18:42:00.000+08:00

Today,

U appeared in my dream,
and ...

If ...

Can u just appear in my every dream ?

如果说

2011-04-24T18:34:00.003+08:00

如果说，
那么，
结果是？

过于谦虚，
就是虚伪。

太过高调，
就是骄傲。

人，
尤其是华人，
特别怕输 ~
难道比较，
才是唯一吗？

你这样，
快乐吗？

Dream II

2011-04-24T00:56:00.002+08:00

今天，
够力浪费多时间，
一直睡觉 ~

压力，
越来越大，
梦也越来也怪 ~

今天，
梦到我吐血 ~

还有，
另一个梦，
是我去变性 ~
恶心 ~

~~~~~~~~~BLALALA~~~~~~~~~

Somebody,
is very irritating,
feel like want to sew her mouth ~~~
Always spread my rumour ~

~~~~~~~BLALALA~~~~~~~~~

Exam is coming,
and i find that USM medic system is like,
public examination.

If we fail Pro 1,
is just the same like u fail your UPSR,
than u gonna go for Kelas Peralihan,
which is the same as repeating 1st year again ~

Then Pro 2 is like PMR,
and Pro 3 is like SPM ~

To graduate as a medical doctor.
Pro 1, 2 and 3 have to be passed succesively ...

Haiz,
actually,
nothing is hard in this world,
just the matter that,
whether u want to work for it or not .

Victor 's thought :

If i am brave enough, then i will make myself go pursuing u,
Maybe it may fail,
just that the courage,
i dont have ~
Sorry,
for myself,
Useless,
for myself ~

Dream and Reality

2011-04-22T18:34:00.003+08:00

Do you believe in dream ?

Do you believe whether your dream will become a reality one day ?

Exam is coming,
i have all sort of weird dream ...

One day,
I dreamt someone chopped off my fourth and little finger , of my right hand ...
He just chopped off the distal phalanges,
so,
i still have my proximal and middle phalanges of my 4th and little finger ...

Another day,
i dreamt that i died.

Died in an unknown place....

One more dream,
i dreamt to hold your hand,
this is not a weird dream,
just too short the dream.

Otherwise,
i can hold longer ~~~

If dream can become reality,
then what will be my destiny ??

Kena chopped ?
Died ?
Or have the chance to hold your hand ?

Unknown ~

Life View

2011-04-20T11:26:00.004+08:00

Sometimes,
or many times,

we ' ll hear people discussing,
"Hey, u and him are so ngam ! Become couple lah !"

People like to say everything they like.
For fun ?
To relieve stress or ??

Just imagine the victims do not like each other.
Or they already have someone else in their heart ?

It is good to say so,
if both of them like each other,
It may catalyse somehow,

just many things are not that smooth,
as people say...

It may just make the victims feel annoying about the gossip,
if both of them have really nothing between them...

The same thing applies in studies.
People like to say others are good,
will get A, Viva or blalala...

But what if,
the results they get,
is not thet good,
and at the same time,
people already help him / her to promote,
to everyone that the victim 's results is very good,
in fact thet the victim just got normal or
worst results ???

Why the human 's mouth is so evil ??

Human likes to comment,
likes to create gossip and rumour,
to shok sendiri ...

Many good friends start to keep a distance with each other,
when people start gossiping about them.

Many people feel depressed when others are always propagating their results.
They afraid,
since people already promote he / she get A.
If he / she does not get,
people will laugh at them ....

Victor's thought :
I have realised all these, i will start to prevent myself from becoming the same type of people like them. I hate gossip and rumour.

I know is impossible, but i wish to hold ur hand and say : "I love u" ,
under the dark sky filled with shinning star ...

Study !

感动天，感动地

2011-04-17T23:10:00.004+08:00

感动天，感动地 ~

一开始，
我以为，
爱本来会很容易，
所以没有，
经过延续，
就把你放心里，
至到有一天，
你和他走在一起，
我才发现，
原来爱情，
不是真心就可以 ~

~~~~~~~~~ down ~~~~~~~~~

Things are beautiful and,
seem to be perfect,
if u do not know the results.

Sometimes,
it is better to be lied,
ratter than being told the truth.

Nothing and no one,
will know ur own feeling,
except u yourself .....

It is better to keep silent,
because is the best way to reduce pain ~

Fate and destiny

2011-04-15T18:38:00.004+08:00

Many things are predestined...
Today we are friends
Tomorrow we may become enemy.

I still remember,
5566, energy, K-one, 183 club and so on....
They were so famous during my secondary school times.

But,
now,
separated and dissociated.
No more new album...

Not only that,
there are people mention rhat,
the ex-team mates also become enemy.

Take 仔仔周渝明 and 言丞旭 as example,
They were together earned $ in the past,
but now,
they don't even want to perform on the same stage...

Many things in this world are unpredictable and unexplainable.
Fate and destiny descibe everything happened around us.

Another example is 大S and 仔仔...
I was once so like both of them as a pair,
i even think they will get married.

Who konws ?
大S has married,
but his husband is another guy,
汪小菲 ~

A good friend may be remain as good friend this moment,
but,
change face in the next moment ~

Haha ...

人与人之间的关系，
十分的微妙。

很多事，
会变，
唯独，
景象和记忆犹存 ~

Aiyoyoyo

2011-04-14T18:55:00.002+08:00

Today,
is 14th my dear...
Exam is coming...
I need to speed up !!!

Now or never....
I need more adrenaline...
Feel like go to Dept of Chemical Pathology to steal some adrenaline.
To inject on myself...

Come on....
Thyroid gland...
Please secrete more thyrosine...
Or i shall eat more iodine to produce more T3 and T4 ???

Come on...

Sigh

2011-04-13T01:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,
I hate myself...

Every morning,
i will very hate myself.

I always study on the bed.
Most of the time,
i fall asleep in the halfway.

When i wake up,
i will notice that my last night notes havent finished revising.
Then i will be very pek cek....> <

what to do...
Victor,
exam is coming,
reduce ur sleeping and daydreaming time ok ???

Sigh ~

100th

2011-04-12T21:11:00.002+08:00

Well,
this is the 100 th post,
since i first opened this account on December 2008...
Back to December ~~~
Nice....

Well,
I just comfirmed to go Hong Kong in this coming Jun.
I am going to AMSA (Asian Medical Students Association) 's conference,
which is going to be held at Hong Kong in this coming Jun.

There is only 3 places allocated to USM,
so i really treasure this chance,
to make friend with medical students,
especially those from Hong Kong, NUS, Japan, Korea, Thailand, China and so on...

Lol,
Is RM3000....
I love my parents,
as they immediately agreed at the moment i asked them whether i can go or not...
Thanks for their financial and mental support....

~~~~~~~~Blalala~~~~~~~~~

Pro is coming,
I am getting paler.
Yesterday,
My neighbour asked what happen to my hair,
he said it was very messy like sakai....

In addition,
They commented that my misai is too long and.....

What happened to me.
stress most probably.

I have getting lesser sleeping time.
Like a zombie...

Anyway,
this is me...
I was like this also during PMR,SPM and STPM ....

~~~~~~~~~~~Blala~~~~~~~~~~~~

最近，
觉得以下的词句很有意思：

我愿化做石桥，
甘愿忍受五百年的风吹，雨打，日晒，雨淋。
只求你能在某一天，
在桥上走过，
那我也不枉此生 ~

5th of April

2011-04-05T21:43:00.006+08:00

Today, is 5th of April 2011....
Today, is a sunny day.....

I have just recovered from vocal cord inflammation.
The damn influenza caused to me to lose many precious to study.
Now, i need to work double hard, or my Final Exam will sure dao pao liso.

Well, the speciality of 5th of april,
is that the same date of the coming month,
that is 5th of May,
i will be finished sitting the last paper of Professional 1.

Exam, havent started, and the timetable has out.
Fine, it is natural to have the timetable ready,
just that the date for Viva Interview has out also.

And then, people start to discuss who will be selected for Viva Interview.
And, my friends said VICTOR will be one of them.

Honestly, viva is the dream of most medical student.
By becoming a Viva Student, it is a honour to urself and ur family.
But, the problem is, i never think much,
i just wanna study hard and do my best in Pro 1....

The problem of USMKK lies here, people like to talk nonense,
i don't really know,
maybe it is a way to relieve stress,
whatever ~ i don't care between.

Victor's thought : The person who always says others will be called for Viva Interview is the who mostly to go himself / herself. Maybe they just want u to tell them : " oh, if i will be called, then u will definitely be crowned as Viva Distinction Genius" .

Sometimes, just save your breath and don't waste ur energy to argue with those ignorant people,
just stay calm and save ur energy in ur studies will do ......

~~~~~~~~~ Blalalala ~~~~~~~~

Haha, Holiday is coming....
and then, on the coming Thursday,
Doctors are going to announce The month when Medical Students going to start their 2011 / 2012 academic session.

My reliable source says that they have fixed on July.
That means VICTOR left about 1 and 3/4 months holiday after the Pro 1 ~
Anyway, Nothing is important now,
other than the exam preparation.

May God bless me ~
What i wish to be fine, will be fine at the end
I hope God may grant my wish...

Victor's thought Sometimes, human plans but God decides ~
Treasure the present as we don't what's going next,
People are rumouring that 2012 will be the end of the World,
Anyway, just enjoy the present to the fullest,
so that if we are predestined to die,
we will leave the world without any regrets.

Mentioning rumour, it makes me remember one best friend,
the friend, doesn't like and never believe in rumour ....
Sometimes, it is better to stop believing if u don't want something to happen,
it is better to lie rather to face sometimes ....

Victor's thought : Rumour can be good or bad. Its bad is that it creates chaos, its good is that it made me start to know my that best friend .....

Ok, gonna back to study...
Will update if i am stressed,
As blogging has become my way to relieve stress.

Finally, i has temporarily quited Facebook for one week,
i gotto maintain this performance and facebook,
"i am only gonna open u again at the night of 5th of May" !!!!!

Bye, care everyone ~~~~

Sick

2011-03-27T23:21:00.002+08:00

Still remember, Mummy said when i am sick, is hard to take care of me, because i am very degil... Luckily, i did not get sick easily... Now, I am sick. And Mummy is not with me... I feel very horrible, the taste of taking care of myself. Be strong. =.=

Oh Gosh

2011-03-24T21:09:00.002+08:00

Pro 1 is coming,
I shall be happy of it,
I must do my best,
I dont want to repeat.

I am looking forward to go back,
after the Pro,
there is still many things to cope,
I am just sometimes too fragile to get hurt.

It is not good to 念旧，
as that will become my weakness,
I got to overvome it....

I believe that the God,
has never given up of me.

I must work harder.
I am going back to home,
and enjoy my holiday.

Life is unpredictable,
i am still lacking of life experience,
thanks for exposing me to variety of experiences,
i really appreciate it.
Thank ~

Dark

2011-03-24T02:04:00.004+08:00

I notice that the life here,
is very DARK,
is not because the sky is dark,
or the lamp is not functioning,
is people heart.

I am studying medicine here,
but it is more to politics or law.

Human is bad, evil and horrible.
They can do anything just for their own good.

They gossiped about u,
they treat u as their imaginary enemy, and they only let u go when u have died.

I hate those people,
who misuse the public things as their own property,
and share among their friends.
Public things become their friends sharing things.

These are unethical.

I realise that,
calm life is the best life here,
just concentrate on my studies here,
and may god bless me.
Jia you !

Power corrupts people,
and Merits can reveal others' true color to me,

I shall thank them.
To make me understand them,
before i get hurt deeply,
even though there is a slightly pain in my heart right now,
but,
i am strong enough to overcome it.

I believe that,
they will finally get paid for those bad things that they have done.

P/s : Please don't always act sincere or pray hard, if ur heart is not pure, that will only leave more stain on ur body....No point to say sorry to God if ur heart is evil. God will never spare u ~

有多少朋友，吵了还是朋友？

2011-03-20T23:06:00.003+08:00

原来，
书本上说的，
都是骗人的。

曾经，
看过；
‘真正的朋友，是吵了架后，感情更好的’ ！

可是，
我看到的却不是这样 ~

又有多少人，
能做到那样呢？

人是爱面子的，
不服输，
好胜 ~

往往因为一时的冲动，
而失去了曾经最要好的朋友 ~

无奈 ~
失去过后的，
只有残缺的回忆 ~

感概！

独在异乡为异客，就算平时也思亲

2011-03-07T22:23:00.003+08:00

独在异乡为异客，就算平时也思亲；
改自（独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲）.....

这几天，
很多这里的同学，
都说想家 ~

我，
也何尝不是呢？

在家，
不用洗衣，煮饭，烫衣，扫地等等 ~~~~

没办法，
做惯了大少爷，
现在的确很辛苦 ~

最近，
又热，又多蚊子 ~
很烦 ~

每当这里有多差，
就想起家里多好。

以前，
太任性，
不懂得惜福，
现在才知道。

没晚也！
我会更爱我的家！

想回家！

明天以后

2011-03-07T16:49:00.002+08:00

在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走
你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说迟到的我的心动
你的好你的坏
我的脾气你最懂
我不要你心疼我（我不要你离开我）
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起（心声）
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一（我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
我从来没对你说压抑的我的心动
我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一（我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

爱情总让人折磨
所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一（我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

Thanks

2011-03-02T18:26:00.000+08:00

Finally.
Thanks God.
Keep it up, Victor !!!!

Thanks again ~

The Rise of the Mayan

2011-02-28T17:00:00.000+08:00

Well,
CNY has finally passed..

Mayan was my performance at the CNY night.
I miss my Performance.
I miss those practice days....

Now,
I feel the emptyness...
Between,
there is not any unseparated dinner,
in this world.
Let go is the only solution.

This is life,
at different times,
there will be different people joining and leaving ur life..

And,
some of them left empty promise....

_____________TOT_______________

Just back from TOT,
tiring,
With dozens of notes to read....

Met Janice and Soh,
at the Main campus,
Janice now is having long hair !!!1

Haix...Jia you ~~~
Look forward for next year CNY...

Study ~

Chinese New Year Night 2011

2011-02-24T21:38:00.003+08:00

Less than 24 hours,
will be the USM Health and Medical Campus CNY 2011 night,
I was released by the directors early...

Haix,
tiring,
yet enjoy ~~~

I hope the Comedy Sketch can do our best at 2moro night,
as well as all other performances....
May god bless everyone of us ~~~

My regret is there ~
Even though the night has not yet arrived.

I like my make-up and my dressings for the show.
Just that,
i will be losing the chance to take photo after the night,
as i will be leaving to Penang straight after my performance for TOT ...

I can't join the ending part,
when every performers will come out and sing together,
and take photo together,
especially the "Whole Family Photo" of the CNY performers ~

I am sorry,
Wen Pei, Mike, Kher Yi and all my seniors.

I really pai sei.
I really want to have a memorable photography session after the night.

~~~~~~~~~~~~CNY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am here,
to wish 2moro everyone will have an awesome night,
enjoy to the fullest,
and long live the Mayan ~~~

* I will upload my CNY photo after CNY ~~~~

Haix and Sigh

2011-02-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

The world is weird,
I am not genius,
I am just a normal boy ~

When u r saying u dont really answer well the exam questions,
people will start to question u ~
"Hey, u don't pretend u duno ok, very fake u know ! "

This is what happened here ~

I don't like to discuss about the exam answer after the exam,
but people tend to force u to discuss with them ~
"Hey, why u don wan to discuss ? Got full marks then hao lian lar ~"

Haix,
Sometimes really unhappy,
when i was not doing really good,
people will never believe me,
they would just question whether my words can be trusted or not....

This is reality.
and life ~

Most of the time,
it's better to keep quiet rather than talking much ~~~

I believe that the God dotes on me ~~~~
People tend to down sometimes,
and,
When i am down now,
it means that i am going to 'up' again from the bottom ~~~

Don't give up, never give up,
bear the pain, it gives me power ~~~

Greater Hope, Greater Despair

2011-02-11T18:41:00.002+08:00

Don't aim to high,
Don't hope so much,
Don't expect so perfect.

Then everything will be fine,
simple,
no hope, no despair ~

Life has been predestined.
What is predestined to be yours,
will be yours one day,
no need to grab or to "gan jiong"~

What is not yours,
don't expect others will "sederkah" u~

At least,
we must defend our last dignity ~

Even though the whole world abandons u,
u yourself will still be with u ~

天空晴天；心里阴天

2011-02-08T21:06:00.003+08:00

今天，
天空晴天，
可是，
心里确实阴天 ~

不知为什么，
很EMO，
咳，
真是的，
不行不行 ~

原来，
不吵，不闹，
就是不理了 ~
是真的 ~

平静的夜里，
充满着思恋 ~

也许，
这是无法挽回的 ~

Once i fall into it, is hard for me to exit

2011-02-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

It has been 4 days,
since i last logged in into facebook.

I have been addicted to it,
until i need to open it everyday,
every moment.

I realised that it wasted much of my time,
so,
since the arrival of the Rabbit Year,
i started to quit it....

I,
will try to control myself,
not to open it until May,
until i finish my Professional 1....

It is painful,
yet i need to draw line from Fb...

Everyday,
I feel my hands itchy if i am not opening it....

I lost many time,
is time for me to catch up,
and,
to concentrate.....

Victor,
it has been 4 days,
i believe i can get rid of it successfully,
because i am very determined.....

Jia you !!!!!

Random

2011-02-05T23:52:00.001+08:00

Today,
is the 3rd day of CNY,
I've back to USMKK ~

Haix,
no mood ~
Still CNY mood,
but.
not forget to work hard this time,
as exam is coming.

Today is a sunny day.
I hope everyday is sunny day,
duno,
just like the sun,
but make sure it is not too hot....

Jia you ~~~

1st post of the Year of Rabbit

2011-02-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

1st post,
of the year of Rabbit ~

Is not a happy post ~
less than 8 hours,
Victor going to leave home de ~

Going back to campus ~
In this return,
i have lots of promises for myself,

I wanna do well in my Selanjar 3,
as well as my Pro 1 ~
Thank u Shi Yi and Nemo ~
Glad to know u two,
for giving me a lot of inspiration and motivation,
to do well in my exam....

Not forget,
i promise myself not to be silly anymore,
don't wanna let myself being fooled by people again ~
Never trust and believe to 'PROMISE' ~
Until i meet someone who i really can believe in ~

Then,
i want to perform well in my CNY night performance,
promise to give myself a blast one on the night ~
Before that,
must do well in my selanjar 3,
so that i can worry less ~

Haha,
I hope this will be my year ~
The rabbit year ~~~
Love ~~~

Jia you Victor !!!!
Rest well, study smart, and behave well ~~

* Hereby wanna say sorry to those i hurt before ~
This is a new year ,
sorry for my past immature act ~~~
I will try to be more mature ,
not forget to play Around to relieve my stress ~~~
Blalala ~~~~

GO GO GO !!!

故乡。家

2011-01-28T23:47:00.004+08:00

The Sun covered partially by cloud

Reaching LCCT

Over the cloud

首先，

想要向大家 promote 一下 [故乡]，

[故乡]，

是理大医药与健康保健学院2011年新春晚会的主题 ~

请多多支持。

有一个地方，

它，

不会因为你在外头有了爱人没回去而生气；

它，

不会因为你在外头读书工作没回去而小气；

它，

会在，
当你在外头忙得很累，很累时，
让你有机会，

重温幸福的味道。

它是 - 故乡

我们的家 ~

今年，

我第一次回家过年，

因为，

之前都没有离过家酱久了 ~

我爱我家，

我爱爸爸妈妈哥哥 ~

因为，

你们对我的爱，

是，

无法衡量的 ~

~~~~~~~~ Naughty's Victor~~~~~~~~~

haha,

1st time took flight back to jb from USMKK ~

Was excited betul ~

Haha,

victor was still naughty ~

CUri-curi didn't switch off the handset when flight was flying ~

Although the Captain kept reminding !

Haha,

Because Victor did not bring camera,

so accidentally i was beside the window,

too rugi if did not snap few pictures from thousand feets right ?

haha,

luckily the flight didn't drop ~
later other passengers will be very innocent loh ~~~~

haha ~~~~
Blalala ~~~~~

Sakai again inside the flight,

Because switched on and off the phone frequently.
Finally,

My sim card kena blocked as i forgot the Sim PIN ~

Alamak !

Luckily Dad helped me to call the Servive Provider.
and at the end,

unblocked de ~~~~

Yeah !

Thank you Daddy ~~~

Victor's thought :
Being the youngest in a family,

always is the one who paling manja de,

like Victor ~~~~

Manja ~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~ Hao Lian ~~~~~~~~~~

Haha,

Jia Hao and Fo Yew nagged me,

as At LCCT,

a lady talked to me and ignored them,

then they got jealous ~~~~

haha ~~~~~

like this lah,
同人不同命啦 ~

哈哈 ~~

No lah,

dont misunderstand,

was not because what,
just kidding okay ???

Was because i was beside the lady at the time ~

So just like this lah ~~~

Not me action nia ~~~

Kidding nia

Happy Chinese New Year lar ~~~~

Growth

2011-01-25T22:56:00.004+08:00

他说，
所有人欺负他 ~

他说，
所有人不理他 ~

他说，
很多很多 ~

明白的人，
自然会明白 ~

人，
为什么总是失去后才懂得珍惜？

机会是自己争取的，
面子是别人给的 ~

你，
尽管，
去告诉全世界所有人是多坏的，
不理你 = 坏？

你弄到别人不爽，
不自己好好的检讨，
反而像疯狗似的向别人倾诉别人怎样的不管你 ~

对你，
不是不理，
是绝望 ~
当然，
也不能说绝望，
因为不曾希望，如何绝望？

希望你，
能好好检讨 ~

因为，
当一个人不爽你，
你不一定不好。

可是，
当很多人不爽你，
那就是你真的不行了 ~

祝福你，
可以好好的改变自己 ~
并且能够找到能够与你很要好的朋友 ~

~~~~~~~~~~~~blalalala~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am looking forward for the holiday ~
CNY ~
Yeah ~~~
Blalalala ~~~

Victor's thought ;

Don't ever do too much silly things that,
no one will appreaciate ;
People tend to forget,
what they have promised .

People may happy for one night,
for what u have done to cheer them up,
but they will hurt u whole life,
when they have gained something better~

If,
practise makes perfect ;
then,
promise means nothing .

Sky looks clear tonight,
Stars shine high there,
Thank you,
Because u taught me that,
without those people who hurt me before,
I will never realise that,
without those people,
my sky is still clear,
even thought their appearance darkens my sky,
temporarily .

累

2011-01-24T00:28:00.003+08:00

今天，
QC ~

对不起Mike 和 Wen Pei，
大家都很Down。

我了解你们很累也是 ~

对不起，
因为我们让你们失望 ~

对不起，
因为我们没有达到你们的要求 ~

我，
承认，
我是语气很不好 ~
我，
道歉~

你们，
别将Stress 也是 ~

如果说我们很累，很压力 ~
那么你们的累和压力会更多 ~
我理解 ~

你们都对我们很好，
也很体贴 ~

谢谢，
你们煮东西给我们吃 ~

谢谢，
你们的关心 ~

谢谢，
你们的谅解 ~

眼前的路还很长，
我们还有许多要改进。

对不起，谢谢 ~

对不起 + 倔强 + 回忆

2011-01-22T03:05:00.004+08:00

首先，
我在昨天，
21 日，
因为现在已经是22 日了，
做了一件很不圆满的事。

我，
知道你在读，
只想说，
虽然你们不介怀，
也没怪我，
可是，
我真的是一个很，
要怎样说呢？

我是很典型，
很典型的完美主义者。
我，
也许，
不能接受自己犯错。

虽然你们不怪我，
可是，
我真的，
很不好意思 + 自责 + 内疚 ~

真的很对不起，
我就是这样的，
也许你们骂我，
我才会好过些，
真的 ~

对不起 ~
因为，
我真的没有做好，
没有好好的圆场 ~
让你们委屈，
是我的不好 ~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~倔强~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我是
典型，
的 Libranian,
表面和心理，
想的，
都是不一样的。

我，
承认，
我，
很口是心非。

因为，
我爱面子 ~
特别爱那种 ~

很多话，
说了，
都未必是心里想的 ~

因为我要留着当下的面子，
而选择过后在房里默默地流泪与后悔 ~

我，
是倔强的 ~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~回忆~~~~~~~~~~~~

有些事，
不是说扔掉就可以忘记。
因为，
你可以扔掉所有东西，
可是你扔不走回忆 ~
除非你失忆 ~

你可以偷钱，偷什么都好，
因为你被抓到后还能还 ~

可是，你却不能偷心，
道理简单，
“破碎的心该如何还” ？

最近 + 偏见：爱人和仇人

2011-01-19T00:07:00.002+08:00

最近，
天气是热的咯，
之前，
死命下雨，
现在已经两个星期没有下雨了 ~

晒到，
快要变成肉干了 ~~~

也许酱才有过年的 FEEL gua ????

~~~~~~~~~~~~ 偏见 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

也许，
人与人之间，
真的存有偏见 ~

如果你很恨一个人，
即使他，
扶老婆婆过马路，
你都会觉得，
他想要推老婆婆去給车撞 ~

如果你很恨一个人，
就算他一个人静静地坐着，
你都会不爽，
要他马上在你的面前消失 ~

当然，
如果你很爱一个人，
就算她在你面前挖鼻孔，
你都回觉得，
那，
是多么的优雅温柔。

这就是，
人性。

我，
当然也是其一。

我，
不否认 ~

~~~~~~~~~~~Part 2 ~~~~~~~~~~~

有时候，
有些人，

输在了起点，
长得不美不帅，
结果，
就被别人瞧不起 ~

就像丑小鸭 ~
我觉得他们很可怜 ~

可，
有个朋友说，
丑小鸭就是利用别人对他们的同情，
而做怪 ~

越说越乱 ~
人，
够力复杂 ~
比 CNS 还要够力 ~

咳，

可是，
如果你真心待人，
别人又会怎么想？

答案：你很假 + 做作 ~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Blalalala ~~~~~~~~~~~~

啦啦 ~~~~
我，
需要勇气 ~~~

勇气 ~~~~
给我 ~~~
谢谢 ~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~ SOrry ~~~~~~~~~~~

晚安 ~
要读书了～～～

死掉

2011-01-17T01:46:00.004+08:00

我觉得，
我要死了 ~

不懂会累死，
还是毒死 ~

白天上课，
下午LAB ，
晚上练习 ~

累死 ~

晚上至凌晨，
读书，
耽误肝脏的运作，
和排毒 ~

完蛋了。
要死了 ~

毒死，
一定很难看 ~
样子I mean ~

~~~~~~~~~~~累~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

突然，
喜欢以下这些句；

放我一个人生活，
请你双手不要再紧握，
一个人我至少干净利落，
沦落就沦落，
爱闯祸就闯祸，
我也放你一个人生活，
你知道就算继续结果还是没有结果，
又何苦还要继续迁就~

是一首歌，[放生] BY 范逸臣。

就觉得很有意思 ~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~讨厌~~~~~~~~~~~

没脑的人，
说我们CNY表演的人很忙，
不像他可以在房间K书 ~
算 ~
你慢慢在房间烂，
我当你放屁 ~

结论，
你真的够力烂 ~~~
全身，
不只是嘴巴 ~~~

白纸 + Highlighter + 铅笔 + 钢笔 + Liquid Paper

2011-01-14T01:02:00.004+08:00

人生，

就犹如一张白纸 ~

许多时候，

我都希望，

我用的是铅笔，

是铅笔，

Which is written on my own plain paper.

So that when i think it is not good enough,

I can erase it and rewrite.

事与愿违，

每个人，

用的都是钢笔。

不管写的美不美，

对不对，

都不能改了，

当写了之后 ~

坏人，

就像 Highlighter,

在你写错字时，

Highlight 你的错误 ~

There is not correction tape and Liquid paper in my life.

But there is lots of unwanted, annoying Highlighter,

'enriching' my life.

That's life ~

No one will highlight what are the good deeds that one has done,

yet they will highlight even the little small mistakes that one have done.

What i have done ?

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Foramen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Recently,

like to post blog at midnight,

one friend said my post is "before-bed story".....

Lol,

This is just like an addicted hobby of mine recently,

due to late back to room after the practise.

Thank you for the praising ~~~~

不再相信，

任何承诺，

因为承诺 = 曾诺 = 曾经许下的诺言。

People tend to forget instead of forgive.

The moment u forget eveything = the moment u tear the paper apart

People tend to say everything and anything,

but to which extend can they complete it ?

爱上寂寞的味道 ~

因为寂寞，

不会撒谎，

不会曾诺。

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Foramen ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Victor's thought

Is praying for better 2moro......

Hoping my paper can be colored with nice colorings and pictures ~~~

杂谈

2011-01-13T00:50:00.001+08:00

刚，
回来。

超累，
头很痛，
一堆NOTES 在那儿，
看了就显 ~

今天，
是晴天，
很久没有晒太阳了。

够力爽 ~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~爽~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

突然之间，
才发现，

原来，
我在别人眼里，
是那么的令人讨厌。

watever,
I am too tired and don't have time to deal with this kind of people anymore.

很累，
今天。

不懂是不是要死了，
够力，
累 ~~~~

看到别人睡觉够力诱惑下 ~~~

忍 ~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 掰 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

开始ENJOY CNY的Practise，
虽然很累，

有时想想，
开心也累，
不开心也累，
倒不如开心的累 ~~~~

Victor's Thought ~
人生里，
不同的阶段，
会有不同的人，
在不同时候，出现和消失。
所以，
出现的人，不一定是好人，
消失的，就一定是坏人 ~~~

Good Morning, Good Bye and Good Night

2011-01-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

Good Morning,
My room mates.

When i back from lecture,
One of them go for Drum Practice,
One go for Sports practise,
The remaining,
sometimes,
may go for Wushu,
or will go for it at night.

We live inside the same room.
But now,
we sheldom meet up.
Maybe at Lecture Hall,
or during Lunch time.

When they back at night,
I will say Good Bye to them,
Because is my turn for CNY practise again.

When i back at midnight,
most of them have slept,
some may still alive,
but is goin' to sleep also.

So,
Victor says Good Night to them.

I still remember how we met up in the same room,
During Orientation Week,
All of us were late for the assembly,
on one day,
it was in the morning on the second day of orientation,
and at the end,
We received punishment together.

The memories were mixed with sweet and sour taste.
Time flies.
We grow older yet more mature.

Sometimes,
I have many things to talk to u all,
38 or watever things....

Trust me,
all were nice to know things,
just i understand,
u all are tired,
due to sports, practices or studying.

But it's fine.
It is also quite cute to see and look at u all,
when u all are now sleeping,
while i am still reading.

I hope by the time u all wake up in this moring,
and,
not limited to this morning only,
but every morning,
u all can enjoy the day to the fullest.

I pray that CNY fast fast pass and come.

So that,

The quiet room,

becomes nosiy again.

Full with quarrel,

scandals,

and so on.

It's so nice to live with u all. Enjoy ur sleep,
and,
I gotta reading now.

Bye.

对不起，谢谢你，希望你

2011-01-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

我，
承认，
我，
很不好。

脾气暴躁，
冲动~

可是，
就有如，
我时常对别人说的，
错了，
才说对不起，
会不会太迟了？

原来，
当时冷静些，
现在就不会有遗憾了。

对不起，
是我那时的冲动。

谢谢你，
是你不介怀。

希望你，
快点好起来。

就有如你时常对我说的，
May god bless u (refer to myself, me, as u were always talking to me).

这次，
你对你自己说好吗？

早日康复 ~

Busy Life

2011-01-10T01:32:00.000+08:00

Oh Gosh ~~~
爸爸炒豆芽 ~~~~

Life is so busy here....
Just started GIT ~~~~
3 notes, one also havent finished....
later Demo @ Discussion sure dunno What Dr Aiijaz and Dr Fadlii going to teach one .....

Pharynx ya pharynx,
u look so cute but too complicated....
just like larynx....
Oral cavity also....
Arterial, venous and lymphatic supplies really make my mind "gong gong".....
Later Demo have to 眼睛打小鸟 already....

CNY practice later again....
BI class morning, then BM test,
then 2 lectures,
then Demo,
then BM class,
then CNY practice,
Finally i left night time to study later.....

Please ya ,
my stylopharyngeus and salpingopharyngeus,
fast fast enter my mind ok ???
Tolong Tolong....

Busy,
lessens my sleeping time,
yet is useful for me to forget all those upset things ~~~~

Fish - ing

2011-01-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

其实，
有些人，
只喜欢说别人不好，
喜欢钓鱼，
喜欢搞暧昧，
喜欢伤害别人的感情；

我说，
这些人，
是不是不喜欢照镜子？

怎么就看不见，
自己，所说的，
就是自己呢？

看到，
眼睛就痛，
真是碍眼 ~

怕生眼针，
此人，
太 DESPERATE 了。

人，
就是这样，
做作，
喜欢扮清高，
扮纯情，
恶心 ~~~

其实，
内心不知有几 DESPERATE ！

说别人钓鱼，
倒不如，
说自己犯贱被钓吧！

LASTLY，
做作！
送你！！！！
新年快乐！！！

你不把我给的当玫瑰，只是当屎似的拼命踩 ~

2011-01-05T18:55:00.000+08:00

你们，

把我当什么？

爽，

就偷拍我，

爽，

就拿我不雅的照片做视频，

爽，

就要我来，就来，

我没说不来，

就，

夺命连环CALL，

信息~

层出不穷 ~

穷追猛打，说，我会害你们输，

说，不来要斩我的头（chop my head） ,

请问？我杀了人吗？

你们当我是啥？？？

狗？

狗都不如！

好！

你们觉得我只会害你们，就是吧！

喜欢 CHOP 就 CHOP ~

I don’t bother as I never care ~ I gave my full commitment but u think that I want to DAI SAI !

U so emphasize on teamwork, did u ever care about my feeling when u showed the video to all ? Did u care about ur team member’s feeling ?

Did I absent ? Did I neglect the “team work” that u so 推崇？

重点是，我害了你们了吗？

你不把我给的当玫瑰，只是当屎似的拼命踩 ~

Wanna say I want to harm u all please go ahead ~

Wanna chop my head please come to my room ~

Wanna do anything bad on me please just do ~

Holiday

2010-12-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

Victor,
has started his holiday,
yet,
it is short,
it is only 1 week,
a week....

Today,
I went back to my former working office,
I had lunch with my ex-colleagues.

The moment i re-step on the office's floor,
the smell,
the aroma,
the feeling,
shaked my heart...

It was about 7 months,
since i left there,
many things still remain the same,
only,
Victor has changed.

I miss those working days...
In the past,
Victor only knew to nag and express my disatisfaction there,
I did not know to appreciate.

Living far away from home for about 6 months,
has strengthen Victor.
I have grown up.....

At least,
working enriched my personal experience.

Past

2010-11-20T21:48:00.001+08:00

I was sorry,
but it is a LATE sorry,
everything is late by now.

Sweet memories,
still there,
clearly,
By the way,
let the past be buried by time ~

Nothing can be done now.
Anyway,
i know that i should be concentrating in my studies by now,
but,
i just cant stop myself,
my feeling.

Everything has been fixed now,
everybody should stop questioning and argueing,

Good luck !
God blesses !

Victor,
Should work hard now !
Jia you !

Life still will go on,
with or without me,
so,
only let go,
can let me walk further ~

Thank you for making me stronger,
Thanks God !

一个人，一个心 There is only one heart individually ~

2010-11-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

God is fair,

We,
each of us is granted with a heart.

We have,
1 heart.
However,
we have 4 chambers in it,
people say,
since we have 4 chambers in our heart,
why don't we put 4 persons in it each time ?

I smiled,
I believe in the fact that God is fair,
one heart is only applicable for one person,
each time,
no more than that....
shall be put inside,
each time,
who knows ?
If one is against the God's will,
will he/she get Cardiovascular Disease ?
This is just a joke,
The joke without any scientific proof ~

~~~~~~~Heart's boundary~~~~~~~

胖子，
想告诉你，
我没有扮可怜，
也没有扮无辜，
我，
就算沦落就沦落，
也，
不会向你乞讨你的同情 ~

~~~~~~~Calm's heart~~~~~~~

朋友说，
绯闻，
和新闻价值，
成正比，

我，
不，优柔寡断的说
“不”....

绕了我吧~
不然等下，
又有人说我强镜头，
搏出位....

~~~~~~~Scandal's Breaking Line~~~~~~~

Come back to my title,
of this blog,

God,
has the power of creation,
to prevent our heart from being occupied by too many people,
God,
has created valves in it.

Valves,
We have 4,
Cusps,
which make up the valves,
we have 11 altogether.

All of these,
have strong enough,
to become the invisible protective boundaries inside our heart,
to prevent our heart from being,
stolen by others ~

The valves are too strong,
even though there is chambers enlargements or pericarditis or watever,
they may be destroyed physically,
but,
they are still remain intact there....
its present,
are invisible,
foreverly.......

~~~~~~~Valve's breaks~~~~~~~

我，
没有 ~

任性

2010-11-14T16:03:00.000+08:00

好久好久，

没有update 我的博客，
也许是太忙，
也许是逃避~

我，
还是很任性，
往往做了些事，
或说了些话，
然后，
就会很后悔~

事事无绝对，
我，
不得，
不承认~

我的我行我素，
让我，
有时候，
觉得很懊恼。

很多事，
没有第二次，
过了就过了。
There's no NG in my life.....

维德，
加油咯！

Why

2010-07-29T04:50:00.000+08:00

U asked me not to forget u, in any activities. I did not.

However, did u forget me as a return of my kindness?

From today onwards, i will never answer ur questions. I duno in everythings and even i know, i will pretend that i duno.

U shaped my personality to be a selfish one and thank you.

U gave me a very good lesson.

Mixed Feelings

2010-06-25T18:50:00.000+08:00

Today is Friday, everyone knows this….

It is a very special Friday for me, yes, it is not good Friday, nor my birthday.

It is my last Friday at JB before I set off.

I don’t know why, I have mixed feelings. I am exciting or worrying??
When the time has come, I have to accept it. I have no other choice rather than facing it bravely, as brave as a Rome Warrior.

I should face this reality, luckily this is not my end, but is a new page for me. I am going to know and meet new friend, this is what I have been looking forward since long time ago. I know too little friends. (I know my brother will be saying that what I mean is girls only, hello bro please show me your respect towards me ok?)

Anyway, new life is about to begin, and victor is well prepared to face the challenge. Nothing gonna beats my spirit. I will study hard and serve the society well in future, of course.

May god bless me and good luck to everyone.

昔日, 今日 ; 明日

2010-06-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

昔日,

是

无所不谈;

今日,

是

无话可谈;

相信,

明日

就是素不相识了.

谁的错?

看起来很依默对吧?

我

承认, 很大方, 不优柔寡断地.

昔日, 今日 ; 明日

是很强烈的成反比例子,

我又能做什麽?

Leaving my favourite bed

2010-06-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

2 more weeks, i am going to leave JB.

To USM...

I duno after this leaving, when i will be back...I will be missing my favourite bed for sure....

I have to learn to be independent...I have to meet new friends....

My brother said i m sure easily get attracted by beautiful nurse....

I said i am not....

He go telling mum....i kena scolded by mum...

Haha i will study hard de....

Miss my family after i left, i will....

Destiny

2010-05-30T13:27:00.000+08:00

If after SPM I got Public Service Department’s Scholarship, then I would never studied form 6 at EC, I would be studying pharmacy at overseas now ; and

DESTINY makes me a doctor today.

Yesterday I went out as usual; suddenly I received a msg, telling me that I have been offered Doctor of Medicine by Malaysian Science University (USM).

I was excited and shocked. It is hard to get Medicine in Local Government University, and I got it. In addition, USM is now the APEX University in M’sia. I never expected that i could get it, but it did happen on me.

I am confusing, My father asks me to study Medicine. Then I got to give up NUS. NUS’s Medicine is only applicable to S’porean, I will never have the chance to get it.

My teachers advice me to study Medicine also. In fact, I am unwilling to leave my family, my home and my favourite bed. It tooks 5 years to complete the whole course.

My teachers said that I am old enough and it is now the time for me to giving up my pampered character.

USM is far, the same thing applies to other Universities, only NUS is near to me, as I can come back anytime I want.

I cannot live with my family forever, I have grown up, and it is now the time for me to decide my future.

Finally, I decided to study Medicine at USM, and upon graduation I will become a doctor.

10 years

2010-05-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

A lot of uncertain things in one’s life.

Many things, I believe strongly, have been predestined. If it is predestined to be one’s, eventually it will become his / hers.

I duno how is my life after 10 years. Human has how many 10 years in their life time? I have nearly used up 2 of it, and I left how many more? My question.

Within the 20 years, I did more silly things than useful things; I admitted that, without thinking.

I miss my childhood, no need to worry, as I not need to worry and think so many affairs.

My life is dull and boring, I am tired, I desire to do something exciting. I am waiting. At the same time, I am looking forward for campus life. People say will be very joyful.

I will treasure my last studies chance, as I will be working permanently after that. I HATE WORKING.

Nothing more to say now. I feel sleepy.

11 days, Yeah!

Meaningful

自从

谢谢豪

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

从来没想过

很静很静

真的很 stress

谢谢你

好难过

Actually

我没有爱演

CNY - Year of Dragon

.. 绝交 ..

新的一年 2012

擦肩而过

暧昧 。 相遇

很长的一段路

死亡

真实人生

可怕

姐姐和弟弟 - 有可能的恋曲吗 ？

Long Time

开玩笑

被耍

职业 。愿望

Back-ing

大二

人生

4 months holiday = wasted ?

即生伟，何生丹

Médecins Sans Frontières 無國界醫生救援活动

曹操

Bro's Big Day ! Commencement of the Class of 2011 !!

Hong Kong Memories

Long Time No Blogging !!!!

伤心

Tired

Sew - ing

JUNE

阴天

突然之间

不知怎样过

Thanks God

God, Please bless my name - CHONG ZHI XIONG be called tomorrow

Lala

Can u Kesian Me ?

Unexplainable and Unpredictable

我不配

Last Shot

Brain Juice = CSF

Haiyoyo

一百次，一千次

Dream III

如果说

Dream II

Dream and Reality

Life View

感动天，感动地

Fate and destiny

Aiyoyoyo

Sigh

100th

5th of April

Sick

Oh Gosh

Dark

有多少朋友，吵了还是朋友 ？

独在异乡为异客，就算平时也思亲

明天以后

Thanks

The Rise of the Mayan

Chinese New Year Night 2011

Haix and Sigh

Greater Hope, Greater Despair

天空晴天； 心里阴天

Once i fall into it, is hard for me to exit

Random

1st post of the Year of Rabbit

故乡 。 家

Growth

暧昧。相遇

姐姐和弟弟 - 有可能的恋曲吗？

职业。愿望

有多少朋友，吵了还是朋友？

天空晴天；心里阴天

故乡。家

最近 + 偏见：爱人和仇人

对不起，谢谢你，希望你